The Voice In My Head

Never Ever Lonely

-Ishana Ghosh

Those people over there

will tell you I'm calm and quiet.

But you should know I'm not

'cause I am forever talking

with the voice in my head;

and believe me when I say,

I never stop.

You might be sceptical

thinking how one can talk to oneself

without ever getting bored...

'cause in the end,

both are the same person;

the answers can be foretold.

But let me make it clear

that the arguments WE have

are always more in intensity

than the ones I have with real people.

And what you see

as my decision or mentality

is often the intermediate decision 

we arrive at, to stop

the chaos from going on, for eternity.

The voice in my head

feeds me with positivity

when I'm pessimistic.

And it is that voice in my head

which brings those feelings

which make me angry

and makes me hateful of things.

The voice in my head

is like my guide through situations;

encouraging me to take a risk

and cheering me to go forward.

But also pulling me back

when there is a gut feeling

that that's a thing

I needn't go towards.

I don't know whether

this chatterbox in my head

is a friend or a foe

'cause on one hand,

it helps me reflect on my actions,

judge my past and plan my future.

But on the other hand,

it labels me as an 'Overthinker'

and makes me contemplate endlessly

on things that don't even matter.

Yeah I know we must forget

all the bad things that happen

and never cry on what others say.

But this stupid 'VOICE'!

It never lets me forget,

bringing those memories back each day.

But I sure am grateful

towards this 'voice of stupidity'

which blossoms with creativity,

For never letting me be lonely

even when I'm alone.

Yeah you might call that

as an introverted feeling.

I can only say that

I'm proud it is so.

Even so, I sometimes hope

this 'voice' was more

of an optimistic kind

'cause all the times I'm sad

and filled with negativity,

the 'voice' never succeeds in

making me happy,

all by itself...

All the confusions and dilemma,

the 'voice' is to blame.

But the fact that I'm a deep thinker

is not a matter of shame.

So it is okay

that my everlasting companion,

 the one I chat with all the time,

doesn't have to be a physical entity.

It just has to be a part

of who I am

and who I want to be.

And I know,

if the ones I love

are no more there with me;

if we be too busy 

to talk to each other

or if that option's no more there,

The 'voice' will keep them

forever alive;

I'll be talking to them all the time...

And I'll never ever

have to live,

All by myself...

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Thank you for reading...

P.S. : Do you have such a voice always speaking in your head too? I bet you do... Tell me about it in the comments...

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